Towards the end of last year I had a bit of a crisis. After announcing that I would no longer be selling beads I came to a rather surprising full stop. I don’t know if I was burnt out, scared of failing or if the very act of announcing my intention to stop selling beads just killed my mojo. Either way I stopped, frozen in my tracks, not creating making, selling, photographing, none of it. I couldn’t do anything which, in hindsight suggests I was not on the right track.
Then over the Christmas holidays I started to thaw out. I spent the time between Christmas and the New Year dreaming, scheming, planning, my creativity started to filter through. I made plans for 2019
Then Natalie got ‘flu, and it took her out, I mean it really laid her flat. I brought her home with me on the 10th of January to look after her and 6 weeks later she is still here, she is getting better but it is a slow process. She has had a raft of tests to rule out anything more sinister than post viral fatigue and they all came back OK so I'm ecstatic about that. I'm also grateful that
a. I am in a position to look after her.
b. I had a 'flu jab at the beginning of January!!!
But my plans? Not so much!
In the meantime I am snatching moments where I can. I have reorganised the studio and set up a kiln I bought second hand 3 years ago for the sole purpose of firing precious metal clay. I am sketching new designs, thinking about silver an dreaming about glass and finally, finally I am starting to feel excited again!