While I have been moaning and slapping my head crying "what was I thinking" and all around me is chaos a small thought crept into my head....I always knew once I started on the ventilation it would become something much bigger. All the little things that have been niggling away at me for years are getting fixed. While I will not end up with my perfect studio (because, lets face it, my garden is nowhere near big enough) it will be hugely improved and so much better to work in.I also think it is cathartic, not in the intestinal sense - yuk!, but as one definition in the online free dictionary has it - cathartic - emotionally purging. I am still stuck in the middle of it but it is starting to feel a bit like it will be a fresh beginning and I think it follows that it will give me a fresh outlook on my beadmaking. It is all too easy to get stuck in a rut, to keep making the same beads in the same colours over and over, especally when they sell so well but I have always believed I need to keep pushing on and trying new ideas. When I cleared all the rods and stringers from my counter I was a bit shocked at the lack of variety in my colour choices. I recently read an article about burnout and I suspect I hit the wall towards the end of last year and found myself unable to make anything at all. Over the Christmas break I gave myself permission to relax and take the self imposed pressure off. I felt so much better and went back to making beads, they were the same beads but at least I was enjoying it again. Then the generator broke down and perhaps that was a blessing in disguise.