Learning to Crochet
I have been trying to learn to crochet on and off for some years now, I could do chain stitch but that was about it. I have pleanty of books and hooks, watched you tube videos and found some fantastic tutorials online but I always got bored pretty quickly and gave up. So last year when I saw an ad for the Natural Dye Studio Kaleidoscope crochet blanket club I surprised myself by signing up, I love the Natural Dye Studio yarns. At the back of my mind I thought I could always use the club yarn for knitting but still, I really can't crochet. Years ago when I started bead weaving I fell in love with a kit for an amulet in peyote stitch with a really complicated pattern and a gazillion teeny tiny delica beads in yummy colours. The shop owner advised me that as a complete beginner I would be better choosing something easier to start with but nooo, I'm stubborn and I wanted that one. It took me forever to complete, a little bit at a time, lots of swearing, undoing it and trying again but eventually I finished it and it made me super happy. It was the same story when I started knitting as a teenager, there was a Fair Isle sweater I really wanted and so I taught myself to knit (Fair Isle no less), I loved that sweater and I wore it until it literally fell apart.
Last week the first instalment of the blanket club arrived and I ripped it open... I looked at the pattern and I was utterly baffled, I looked at the colour key, nope still baffled and really, wtf was I thinking??? I moved onto the yarn, it is beautiful and I decided that I really, really wanted to make this blanket. So I wound the hanks of yarn on my spiffy new wool winder and got out my hook. I tried and I failed, I tried again and I failed some more but I.... kept... on... trying. Every time I had half an hour to spare I sat down with my yarn, hook, instructions, books, internet, ravelry, anything that would give me a clue as to how to follow these alien instructions. It took me three days just to figure out the colour key, that was a real face palm moment when I got it, it was so simple!
Finally, today, I have just completed my first triangle that doesn't totally suck and is more or less the right size, it's a small start but I am over the moon. It would seem that I can't just learn a new skill for the sake of it, I need to have a project that I love because my desire to make that one thing will triumph over hours of fury, frustration and failure, the blanket will be mine!